Thursday, June 30, 2011

So proud!


Xo

Haircut day!


Our girls all love having their hair done!

Xo

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Great intentions....

Well...... I know I know..... I promised regular updates and I really feel I would have kept my word except for a little drama (for lack of a better word).

I have so appreciated the thoughts and prayers that all would go well for us. I will start by saying I am feeling much better. Three weeks ago this coming Thursday at about 1:30 Am I awoke in terrible pain. Long story short, thankfully I woke Kev to tell him that I thought everything would pass (really this isn't blog worthy and I am having second thoughts on this post). In a nutshell, I passed out in the bathroom (loss of blood, severe pain, getting up from bed quickly etc. ) and I banged my head on the back of the toilet. Kev found me and I was unconscious for a few minutes. He called the ambulance and they brought me to the hospital(Thank God that our little girls slept through the commotion)... They think that with all things combined my BP dropped too quickly etc. So, I have a concussion, but really am feeling better now. The pain in my head is mostly gone (pain and dizziness comes back off and on). So I feel that I am A OK! I had another ultrasound and was told that the D&C was not necessary as I have passed all the tissue (most probably with this episode). So, I do feel that we can now put this loss behind us fully and move forward. The sadness is a reality of the loss, but I am relieved to know that all can be put to rest physically. Needless to say, due to the concussion, I have had a pretty sound excuse not to have kept my blogging word! Anyway, now that I am more able to read, and use the computer, I really do plan on proper updates! Thanks again for your loving thoughts and prayers. xoxo

The weekend after 'the episode' Mara-Grace had her first dance recital. I know that I probably wasn't up to going, but I couldn't imagine missing this milestone for the world. I am so thankful that I was able to go. I sat there and was amazed at how far my baby girl has come. There she was, dancing like a little star!!! My darling who had been scared at first of being away for me for the 45 minutes of class was up there on the stage putting on a show! I had asked her to blow me a special kiss before she left the stage. And I would catch it and blow it back (even if she couldn't spy me in the audience). I am so thrilled to say that after she performed and waved and bowed, and was just about to leave the stage she turned and threw the biggest kiss out! I knew it was for me and I threw one right back! I truly could have burst with pride and love!!!! She was amazing, and I am one very fortunate Momma!!!! xoxo

We also had open house for Kindergarten.... yes, Mara will be starting in the Fall.... We had two program choices. English and French. French is 100% and they gradually add a little more English each year... We opted for English when we registered her a few months ago. Then we went to open house and discovered that there are only 2 others registered for the English program and the rest of the class will be grade 1's..... This really didn't sit well with me... Another long story short, with much debate, we have decided to put Mara-Grace in the French program. I pray this was the right decision. She is so much more ready for the idea of school and now talking French than she was at registration in March.

Victoria is anxiously awaiting her exam results! And keeping our fingers crossed that the postal strike will be over so that she can receive her report card in the mail!!!! I can hardly believe that she will be graduating High School this coming year. She still wants to go into Medicine, but isn't sure exactly in which direction. I am so proud of my Tori as she has adjusted so well to all of the changes this past year. She is an amazing girl.

Our little Hannah has now given up her booster seat at the table. Really, I am trying to be brave here seeing all of the baby things disappearing:) She has proven to be a fearless little swimmer (which is rather worrisome). The big news is that our little Miss Hannah Faith has pee pee'd and as of today, pooped in her potty!!!!! Such a milestone! Really the process has been a little slow, and I haven't wanted to push her. I think now though this may be a little easier. She is quite proud of her accomplishments!!!!

This past week we travelled with Kev who had to be away with work. We were in Toronto and London Ontario... He was busy working, but it was so wonderful to have some time with my three girls. We swam and shopped and just enjoyed our time. Except for our ride home when Miss Hannah didn't think Mara should fall asleep! Kev had a rental car instead of our van and wow, what a change for our girls to be right side by side! "Wake up Mara!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Yikes!!!!! :) We arrived home (Hannah didn't sleep!) to no power! Kev ran in and lit the candles and we were home safe and sound... albeit exhausted!!!!

xo Ok, I am bushed, and will write more soon!!!! xoxoxo





Saturday, June 4, 2011

Another update?


Yes, so soon!!! I am trying:)))

Our littlest pumpkins "helping" at the hardware store! Home projects can be fun with Helpers like these!!!! Xo

Thursday, June 2, 2011

About time for a proper hello!

Oh where does the time go? I feel rather negligent when it comes to regular blog updating. And always have the best intentions to find the time to sit and write. It seems that when our little girls are settled, this give me some quiet time with Kev and I hate to lose a minute of this! So, my blogging is delayed!

Since writing last, we are all healing with time. Unfortunately I still have tissue remaining which hopefully will pass on its own. If not, when I go for another ultrasound and if it still confirms that then I will have a D&C. I so wish that they would have just done this procedure in the beginning and save all of this extra... Anyway, such is life...

On a happier note, we continued with our plan to host Easter at our home. It was so nice to have both sides of our family here to celebrate with us! Hannah understood so much more about the meaning of Easter and also about The Easter Bunny! She was so excited and happily participated in the Easter Egg Hunt. We also did a hunt (outside) for our girls and nieces and nephews which was so wonderful to watch! Such fun!

The arrival of Spring was much anticipated and having the Lama's, sheep, goats etc. across from us, some with new babies, is a delight. And the cows have returned to their summer home!

Another fantastic bit of excitement around here is that Kevin finished putting together the "Jungle Gym/Park". Sadly, we had a very large unexpected wind storm which uprooted many trees nearby. Unfortunately it blew over the gym set after two days of use, and before we could put the final anchors on.... The fall broke some of the boards which Kevin has replaced. Until then, and since that episode all is great! Our girls ADORE their park!!!! Thank you Daddy for all of the hours you put in to make this possible!

Victoria participated in an exchange at school. She dedicated many hours towards this project and much fundraising for local charities. We hosted some students from a reserve in Saskatchewan for a week and Victoria went there too for a week! It was a wonderful experience and she has a new love for a small reserve she knew nothing of before this exchange! She has met some new friends and has many cherished memories to look back upon (Quading ?sp? , True Beaver tails, watching a friend catch a fish with no rod, gutting fish, Bannock, soapstone carving etc...). I am happy that she participated in this, despite a last minute toe infection that had us make a midnight trip to the ER, crutches and antibiotics,a few days before her departure! Oh the memories!

Victoria also got her first official job! She works at a local movie cinema. Some of her closest girlfriends also work there, so it is work, yet enjoyable! :))

Mother's day was a little difficult this year. Our loss and also our first without our Beloved Gran here to share in this special day. We love and miss you Gran and know you are in a better place and watching over us all. It is so strange to think that it will soon be 8months since we have seen Gran. I am so thankful that she was so involved in our lives.

Thursday night is now SOCCER NIGHT! Yes, Mara-Grace has been signed up for soccer! Oh my! I am a proud Mama, but really she shows great promise! She is fantastically coordinated! She also just finished up her year of dancing and we are looking forward to her recital next weekend!

Hannah Faith continues to be a sweetheart but she is in the squealing/screaming/pulling toys away stage. EEK! For 98% of the time, our girls play so well together. But 2% yikes! Hannah can stand her ground:) She is also very much into asserting her independence (buttons, shoes, seat belts, booster belt etc... Hmmmmmm aside from if there is a time crunch, this works out ok:)) She is so funny and and has the most infection giggle! She is a tender heart in a such a large way. She is so compassionate and sometimes cries if Mara is crying. She also tries her best to comfort Mara too. She will rub her back, kiss her face and tell her, "Is ok Mawa" Too cute!

Speaking of shoes, Mara-Grace has mastered tying her own!!!! Way to go sweetheart! I ordered a book through Scholastic on the subject and after reading this, it just clicked for her! I am so proud of her!!!!

Also, Mara got her ears pierced! We have had no problems and have cleaned them twice a day for 6 weeks! They came out yesterday and I put in new earrings. Today she wanted the other pair in so I took them out, let her go to soccer without any (the lady at the piercing store told us that they could come out for a few hours after the 6 weeks but not to sleep without them).... Well..... Tonight I couldn't get them back in. Good Lord! What a panic! And pain! Finally we got one in properly and the other we could only get in with the backing at the front. At least we got it in. It is as though the holes closed. What a horrific event. Poor Mara.... So now we aren't sure what to do! Do we take that one backwards one out, or leave it like that for a few days to let things settled down? And then take it out and put it in properly?! We were desperate tonight and relieved that we got it in at all. Very traumatic! I was so proud of how well they were doing! I just hope all is ok still.... We won't take them out and leave them out for a few hours again for at least another 6 weeks.

Hannah also has something new and exciting to wear, I will post about this seperately in a few days!

I do promise to write a little every few days. Even a little is better than nothing:) I hope that this note finds you all well! xoxoxo Here are some pics over the last little while. xoxo












Thursday, May 5, 2011

Mara's thoughts


"Mommy before I snap my seatbelt, do you like babies who are like this? ( for car rides). ".

Saturday, April 9, 2011

A very precious gift

For weeks I have been harboring something that I couldn't wait to share... I have been waiting until this past Tuesday and then planned to shout it!!!!

Things are now a little different. At first I thought that I wouldn't journal this, and then I looked at things differently. I do not want to erase this from our minds and lives, this is part of who we are. This is a tribute of sorts.

A few weeks before our trip to Florida, Kevin and I were given news that would change our lives. A beautiful miracle. I found out that I was a few weeks pregnant. What a gift this news was to us. A most unexpected gift after so many years of infertility and struggles.

Tuesday was our first scheduled ultrasound. A day of such excitement and yet in my heart I was scared that our baby wouldn't have a heartbeat.... Perhaps this worry in my mind was a way of preparing me... Right before the ultrasound, I said to the technician how relieved I will be to see a heartbeat and to please tell us right away! Well, tragically, the technician remained silent. I knew at that moment that my worst fear was coming true... I began to cry.... During the procedure she remained silent.... This made me cry far more.... I was told to use the washroom and they would do a different ultrasound and that perhaps the fetus (our baby) was just very tiny. I knew.... I knew in my heart.... I came back and the next ultrasound was performed and again, silence.... I sobbed.... Kevin was with me and he was so strong. I shall never forget that day..... We were told to wait in the waiting room until our doctor (who was in the hospital) came to talk with us.... I went back to a waiting room full of pregnant women, whom I truly didn't want to scare with my crying.... I stood sobbing quietly in the hall until we were told we could wait in the ultrasound room. I felt true heartbreak.... And a love so strong... We waited and our doctor confirmed our worst fears.... Although I was 12.5 weeks pregnant, our baby hadn't developed past 6.5 weeks.... I had no signs of anything wrong, just my own fear.

I had to see my doctor again and he suggested that I take something (all at home) to bring upon this miscarriage. Without too many details, with great fear and sadness, I began this process which I think is now complete.

Our hearts are definitely broken in many ways. And yet, despite this deep sadness, we are doing quite well. Victoria has been wonderful throughout this process despite her great disappointment. She was so excited.... Mara-Grace and Hannah talked to our baby every day and drew some precious pictures of me sporting a lovely baby in my tummy. Our girls and families were beyond excited. So much joy and hope has been such a tremendous part of these weeks.

There was not a day that passed that I didn't thank God for this precious gift... I am very sad, and at the same time, I have a true sense of peace about all of this. I will not question why this has happened. This miracle has given us all hope and excitement and sheer joy. I am so thankful for this precious gift, a gift I never thought I would have again in my life....

I love you our baby angel and pray for you.... I am the luckiest Mommy for having the privilege of carrying you for the time we had... I thank God for you, our precious gift. xoxo

Friday, April 1, 2011

Love


Our Little Miss Winnie is such a darling. She is always patient and gentle with everyone around her. She adores being held like a baby and cuddled. She is a very willing and happy little playmate. She is truly a special little soul. Honestly, our Beloved Daisy was so special and I really didn't think there would ever be another as sweet. I now know our darling Winnie is also a very precious gift to our family. She is everything lovable and couldn't be more loved or treasured. Xo

Thursday, March 24, 2011

FLORIDA!!!!!

What a fantastic time we had in Florida! We went during Victoria's Spring Break and spent the week in a home in Kissimmee. It was wonderful! We had the extra space and invited my brother Sean, his wife and our two beautiful nieces to come and stay/play! I am so happy that they were able to come and share the week with us. Although we all did our own thing, it was so nice to have a little extra time with them at the house.

We drove to Florida instead of flying and the trip took about 21 hours from our home. We spent one night in Georgia and then drove the few hours left to Florida the following day! We left our home in the middle of the night and ran into a snow storm. Thankfully all went well and we soon drove through the different states and welcomed the warmer temperatures!

Our home and the weather were incredible during our stay. We had one rainy morning in which we relaxed a little and did some shopping.

Most days were spent at Disney and one at Sea World!!!!

It was absolutely magical to watch our three girls taking this all in. Victoria at 16 was loving the thrill rides and Daddy went on those with her. Actually Miss Mara surprised us all by LOVING the rollercoasters and many 'big' rides. Hannah and Mama enjoyed watching and as a family we loved the 'little' rides.

It was incredble to see how Hannah, shy at first, began loving meeting the different characters. Mara-Grace and Hannah happily collected many autographs! They quickly got into the routine!

We had made reservations at The Rainforest Cafe and loved the atmosphere! I thought Hannah may be a little intimidated during the rainfall etc. but nope!!!! She LOVED it!!!!

We also had reservations at the Crystal Palace Restaurant in the Magic Kingdom where we dined with Winnie, Tigger, Eyeore and Piglet!!! It was definitely a toss up between myself and our little girls to see who enjoyed this more! I am a BIG big fan!!!!

Although our week was made up of many wonderful moments, I shall never forget our time there together.... Watching our girls revel in the magic and their time together was breathtaking. Watching Hannah's face come alive and hug and thank her Daddy while she watched the fireworks was beyond magic to me.... And a very special moment was when our girls met Snow White... She formed an immediate bond with our little ladies. So much so that they chose to spend their souvenir money on Snow White outfits.

I am so thankful for our time together as a family. What a gift this was... xoxoxo







Thursday, March 17, 2011






Happy St. Patrick's day!!!


More green pics to follow.... Note Mara's idea to turn their hands and feet into "clippity cloppity horse hooves !". (play plates wrapped in socks!)

Monday, February 21, 2011

Cutest doctor's I know!


Making supper and in walk the cutest doc's I know! Tori in her scrubs , and Hannah in my old scrub top and Mara has on one of my old nurse's tops! I am one lucky mama!

Xo

Friday, February 18, 2011

A big week!!!!

We celebrated some milestones here this week!!!!

Victoria has been taking her driver's ed and wrote the exam to allow her her temporary driving permit (must drive with another person with a valid license). She passed!!!! So, Miss Victoria has been driving each evening this week! Dad has been taking her on country roads. She is doing really well! Especially driving straight (no swerving etc.). We are so proud of you Victoria!!!! What does this mean? She will now have almost a year of more driver's ed classes, more driving with us, and driving with the instructor. She is on her way!!!!


Another event this week was Kindergarten Registration (Fall 2011). A few short months ago Mara-Grace still wanted to hear nothing about the thought of leaving Mama to attend school. Sniff:) We have slowly done our best to prepare her for the inevitable! It was definitely bittersweet to register her this week. Of course we celebrated only the sweet!!!!!


Valentine's Day was sweet too (sorry!) :) We decorated and our girls were each given a few little Heart Day surprises. I didn't get any pics! WHAT?! The day flew by and I realise now I didn't get them in their heart shirts etc. I know, I believe that would be a fail:) Oh the guilt.

Well, the weekend is upon us. LOVE this!!!!!

xo